Gnawing Hunger

I tried to eat the fruit that I brought with me and it isn't helping my stomach. It hurts so much and yet I can't somehow feel any better. Everything I eat doesn't satisfy me in the slightest bit. No matter how much I eat,I don't feel full or well.

Can't be the food. It's fresh and doesn't smell bad.

Am I getting sick? No,I would've noticed something was up by now. I don't usually get hungry when I'm sick anyways. Usually I don't even want to eat anything when I'm sick. All I want to do is sleep. And I'm not even tired right now. I feel so..so energetic actually. Like I can do anything now.

Well almost..ghh..dear god why am I still so hungry? It's not fair! I have been eating and yet I still stay so god damned hungry! Uggh...Anyone have any ideas on how to make this stop?

RELAPSED

..did that really just happen?

Did I really just hurt someone? Again? Even though I promised myself that I would never do that sort of thing ever again? Even though that person was trying to help? They promised that they wouldn't hurt me. And I attacked them.

I killed her.

I killed another innocent person who was just trying to help. And wasn't deserving of murder. I am a disgusting hum-creature. Not human. Not a doll. Just a thing with green ooze in my veins. Just a stupid,violent and cruel creature.

One who killed for no reason.

Before I would've blamed anyone for this. Splinter Bitch and Glowy Fuckhead. Hell I would've blamed the smooth-faced fucker too.

Now none of them are around. And all I have to blame is myself for this disgusting thing I have done to this poor person. To this innocent person. I will bury her. Make a grave for this person. It's the right thing to do. I know it is.

I just hope I don't have to make more.

It Freezes

I am a fool.

I touched the creature thinking that I could harm it and only ended up getting beaten.

That's the price of arrogance.

Now it's harder to move and harder to breathe.

I am a fool and now...I slowly take my leave...

There's A Pure Smell To The Air

It smells like winter is coming.

That soft,gentle smell that says it just snowed. Yet there's not a flake on the ground outside. Not yet anyway. Though the air is getting colder and colder. I fear that it will start soon. That'll mean it'll be hard to get food and I'll have to find better shoes. So I guess tonight I'm stocking up on things to eat as well as more firewood just in case.

Been getting the weirdest feeling that it isn't flat out normal weather. And that I might have a certain blue colored youngin' to thank for that. Though I guess I'll deal with his frost bitten little ass when and if he gets here.

Let's hope that I don't have to.

The Day The Ground Shook

For a good portion of today the ground was moving. Like it was either an earthquake or something big was coming my way. It only stopped 5 hours ago and I'm still worried that something might be coming soon. I don't wish to leave this place. This place with places to sleep,food to eat and warmth.

I'll only leave if the weird movement happens again.

Only if it happens again. Which I highly doubt that it will. After all it could have just been some form of earthquake or something. Doesn't mean that there's a creature after me. The big creature from before didn't make this sort of noise. And I would've heard this thing if it was real before.

Right?

Right!

Now I gotta get more firewood. Whoever owned this place didn't keep enough for a whole year,lazy bastards. At least the forest is plentiful and there's an ax here. Good defensive tool if there is anything bad out there. Hope I won't have to use it on someone.

The Town and Forrest of Nothing

It's been so long since I've been able to write. It feels like a dream you know? I'm wishing that I don't wake up at all. Heh. Finally got to a place in...wherever the fuck I am that isn't pain,death and blood. 

Where the monster isn't here.

Unfortunately that also means that Owl isn't here.

But I don't care. My pains are gone. The green ooze I experienced from before is gone and I'm feeling so much better. Whether or not that this is a good thing or not,I don't give a flying fuck. At least Alice is back home. I think.

This place isn't for normal humans I believe.

Probably back dealing with her lame ass doctor. Not the...not the rabid thing that we saw. Not that mutated naked dog creature that cornered me and nearly maimed her.

It might be here with me along with Frosty the dipshit. I don't know. Haven't seen them in a long time and I'm sure that's another good thing about this place. Oh this place. Such beauty. So much food,not easy to get but still. And soft sand. Soft,white and clean. Feels good under my feet. If this place is just a delusion. I love it and I hope to never lose it.

Hospital Visit with Friends

Alice took me to the hospital to get my fingers fixed. (A certain puppet broke it for fun.) And she's making me stay with her because she hates my roomies. Don't blame her for hating them. But she's to observant and I think she's trying to take my scarf off.

At least she hasn't been asking why I don't sit up right or even walk that well. My guess is she thinks my legs are too hurt for me to walk right. Nope. My back...I can't really see it but I can feel it.

This rotting hole..it grows...it gets bigger every fucking day.

Crone? Why is this happening?

You are decaying. That bitch didn't make you to last.

Decay...what the fuck do you mean? I'm what? A doll?

No. Just a replacement. For the real child that used to exist. She's probably dead/gone by now.

...................................I'm not fake. I'm a real human...I'm not fake...I'm a real person...