Freezing Into Madness

It snowed..it fucking snowed. At least three fucking feet. How? This place was fucking hot as the fucking desert not that long a fucking go. Now there's snow! Uggh...he's close. I know it...he and that thing I wounded are near.

Somewhere outside my line of sight.

Silent. Patiently waiting for something. Either my guard to be lowered or something. My guess is that they believe that I won't move again. But I will. I will even if my feet are showing signs of frostbite. No fucking way am I stopping anymore.

I can't afford to be lazy anymore.

They'll take any wiggle room they can get. I know they will. That creature. He's not too fast. That's one thing to be greatfull for. The fucker's built like a horse. So I can at least find someplace high up to get away from him.

Sure little ice demon can climb anything with that gear of his on. But I'm sure he doesn't know the lay out of this place either. So if I'm careful,and I mean VERY careful...I can slip past him unnoticed and find a tiny place to sleep. Maybe get warm. Maybe.

Not too sure.

Wish me luck. I'm really going to need it.

Ssssuch a wassste

Ssso...I ssssuposssse thissss isss what sssshe wasssss up to?

Running from me like that. What a horrid little brat...sssuch a dirty little liar. I'm not a horrible creature. After all...we're sssso much alike. You'd think sssshe'd find me easssy to relate to?

We're both made of the ssssame thingsss that Glow-Bitch ussssed.

We're both sssstill rotting.

And we're both becoming much more than our 'Mother' intended.

Oh well...I guesssss I'll have to sssshow her...won't I? Sssstarting with the young woman in that hideousssly awful place...what was her name again?

Alice?

I Can't Turn Back

There's no point of going home anymore.

I'm probably not welcome and I doubt there's a 'home' to go back to. I doubt there's a loving family waiting for someone like me. And I doubt that my s-Chrissie'll ever forgive me. She probably hates me almost as much as I hate myself.

That's usually how things are.

No one can hate you more than you can hate yourself. And no one'll love someone like me. This horrid,inhuman beast. I'm not fit to go back to where the 'normal' people of society are. Not fit for most the things in life.

It's my fault really. Should have just died a long ass time ago like most of the 'dolls' that bitch makes. How I survived this long is a wonder. But I guess she just made me a bit tougher than most. Well maybe not tougher but a bit better in comparison to the others. Cuz if anything,I'm not tough. Nor brave. Nor smart. Nor am I fit to live anymore.

After all this. I'm going to get a knife and go find that beast again. I doubt I'm going to kill it. Its so much bigger than I am and has more arms. But at least I'll go down fighting.

To my family..if any of you ever read this. I love you all.

To my friends. I'm so sorry for not being good enough.

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I Fed On Her

And I still want more. I'm so hungry and that barely diminished my pains. There has to be a way to get more of this. So fucking hungry. I reeeeally neeeeed to feeeeeeeeeeeed...so fucking hungry.

Wait...

Wait....

I smell someone. I can smell blood...there's an injured person near here...must feed...must feed...

feed feed feed feed

...must feed..dig up body,who will care? She is dead,no time to despair. Must feed..must feed. I must stop this need. It'll be tiring that is true. But I won't care when this is through. Must feed..must feed....must feeed...

Gnawing Hunger

I tried to eat the fruit that I brought with me and it isn't helping my stomach. It hurts so much and yet I can't somehow feel any better. Everything I eat doesn't satisfy me in the slightest bit. No matter how much I eat,I don't feel full or well.

Can't be the food. It's fresh and doesn't smell bad.

Am I getting sick? No,I would've noticed something was up by now. I don't usually get hungry when I'm sick anyways. Usually I don't even want to eat anything when I'm sick. All I want to do is sleep. And I'm not even tired right now. I feel so..so energetic actually. Like I can do anything now.

Well almost..ghh..dear god why am I still so hungry? It's not fair! I have been eating and yet I still stay so god damned hungry! Uggh...Anyone have any ideas on how to make this stop?

RELAPSED

..did that really just happen?

Did I really just hurt someone? Again? Even though I promised myself that I would never do that sort of thing ever again? Even though that person was trying to help? They promised that they wouldn't hurt me. And I attacked them.

I killed her.

I killed another innocent person who was just trying to help. And wasn't deserving of murder. I am a disgusting hum-creature. Not human. Not a doll. Just a thing with green ooze in my veins. Just a stupid,violent and cruel creature.

One who killed for no reason.

Before I would've blamed anyone for this. Splinter Bitch and Glowy Fuckhead. Hell I would've blamed the smooth-faced fucker too.

Now none of them are around. And all I have to blame is myself for this disgusting thing I have done to this poor person. To this innocent person. I will bury her. Make a grave for this person. It's the right thing to do. I know it is.

I just hope I don't have to make more.